Yesterday finally the other girl decided that she was gonna give him a chance and now I feel like shit even though I want him to be happy... So I didn't wanna vent to him cause he already felt bad cause he started having a little feelings for me... So I sent hoe I felt to my best friend and she thinks I should send it to him to make me feel better better n clear the air n keep it 100 with him sine I've been like that since the beginning... What do u guys think... This is what it said....

I legit woke up and was like omg my best friend is gonna have a girlfriend now and everything is gonna change... I'm gonna have to filter what I say... I can't make out with him like I wanna which I really enjoy and love to do... Can't have sex with him for 2-3 hour even though it's only happened twice lol... The fact that when we did do it it didn't feel like sex it felt like we had a bond that went past sex it's like we knew each other for years or was married for years... No other guy knows what my whole mind process is when it comes to what I'm thinking about and why I did it expect him... We all know I hate showing any type of emotion to a guy Allen had a heard time cracking the shell and Allen was all sorts of fucked up but I know he cared about me and would move the world for me... He knows things that I would never dare tell anyone... But like I said I should have known it was bound to happen and just kept a open mind and remember that I wasn't first in like and he had stronger feelings for her cause he's been talking to her longer and stuck through the bs that she put him though just cause of the past that she has which honestly he have the same past the only difference is I'm older and have learned to except that I'm fucked up from it and I've learn to keep it as a learning experience.... I though I would cry over d when we... I kinda distance myself from him cause I had started to have really strong feelings for him... But I guess all I can do is put the feelings to the side and be the best friend that I promise to be and be there for him even though I'm realizing that he kinda was winning me over