Soul crushing moment

A little background first, I've been married 3 years we have one son who will turn 2 at the end of this month, and I want to try and conceive again since I don't want my children to apart from eachother.  Well just found out my husband isn't on board with me anymore, and instead of him just talking to me about it, I found out the hard way. "We've been ttc for about a year" or atleast it has been a year in my book. I miscarried at the end of April and ever since then nothing. Well I just found out the hard way that for a while what he has been doing is stopping early, and finishing in the shower.. If you know what I mean. I'm so heartbroken. And then when I asked him about it, he turned it around on me!