Feeling disheartened

Kirsty
Been having cramps past couple of days (could be AF or my IBS) I really really tried not to think about it, I didn't test until 8/9 dpo obviously negative.. But felt my cervix it's low, hard and closed so feel like AF is just around the corner. 
 
I am so so so gutted, I think this is my last month trying I cannot deal with the heartache😢😢😢