Feeling like a crappy mama

Oly • SAHM who loves movies, nerdy games, music and cooking
I think everyday, okay if I had him right now what would I do? Call dr? Let the dogs out really quick? And lately being so tired I think to myself.
I just want to sleep. Is that selfish? If I went into labor today, Id want to hold him and take his beautiful face in, but honestly I'd probably hand him over to papa or nurses and sleep. And that makes me feel like a piece of trash. Is anyone else feeling this way? Excited to meet and hold their baby but overwhelmed and already wanting a break for just one day, just to get your body ready for the months of hard work ahead?