Ours Began (a poem on becoming a mother that I wrote)

Starr • Baby #3 Due May 2025 ❤️ Selenya Avery born July 24, 2016! 🎀 Angel Baby Lily🌸👼🏼 Secilia Elizabeth born October 15th 2021 🌈💖
Nine months ago
The Lord called upon me,
He said "I know what's best.
Place your faith in me
And my child you'll see,
I'll handle all the rest.".
--
"But Father-" I told him 
"I'm so undeserving of this gift;
the greatest one could get.
To be a mother
I'd surely forever 
be in heavenly debt.".
--
He said "Show her how to love,
teach her to grow in Christ-
that's how I'll be repaid.
I'm trusting you,
your strength shines through,
now adore her all your days.".
--
A miracle was created,
a precious life was given-
a very child of His own.
He blessed my being
to have so much more meaning.
It was destined in my bones.
--
My body to be cherished;
it was no longer my own- 
a temple isn't to be reckless
And now life wouldn't be 
All about me 
It was time to be selfless.
--
So I spent my nights dreaming 
and longing just to know
Who will she become?
What lives will she save?
Hearts will be engraved.
So much love to come.
--
With every kick and flutter
I'd imagine her tiny toes
And wonder where they'll go.
Who will she meet?
What will she defeat?
So much there is to know.
--
Anticipating the day
And awaiting the moment 
That I'd look into her eyes.
To God be the glory
for it's in that unwritten story
where true innocence lies.
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A calm came over the world
As my life stopped and ours began-
Everything to be shared.
And when she finally came
through the strength and the pain
It was into my eyes she starred.
--
It's like she knew it was meant to be
that God promised her me
& as I looked to her on my chest
with joy I cried,
called to the sky,
And said "you really do know best." 
--
-By Starrett Houghton
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Selenya Avery and I at two weeks post partum. 💕