I just need to get this off my chest

My newborn is about 11days and since day one he hasnt had a good latch or even want to breastfeed for that matter. I meet with every lactation consultant in the hospital I even stayed an extra day just to get thed hang of bf. We tried positioning nipple shields and a nipple bottle transfer thing. And nothing every time I put my son to my breast he screams like I'm torturing him. So I've been pumping and bottle feeding. And because his temper gets really bad (I'm mean really bad) we have in and use a pacifier when needed which is almost all the time.

I'm feel like I will never get the bf experience or that I'm failing in some way.

Am I the only one going through this?

Is breast feeding just not in the cards for us?

I feels it's just not going to happen but the lactation consultants just push for breastfeeding. He's getting my milk isn't that just as good?