So, I'm new to the app and was just scrolling through the little posts and I see a LOT of pregnancy announcements!

Fist of all, congratulations!! I'm very happy for you and wish all of you and your little fetuses health 😊

But this post is for those who don't have the announcements, and won't have that chance to tell all their friends and families that they're making a miracle in their womb.

I have endometriosis. I was diagnosed at 17 after a little over a year of searching for the cause of my pain. I went in for an exploratory laporoscopy, I woke up to my diagnosis and the news that I had my tubes taken out due to the abnormally large/heavy growths on them. At 17 years old, still a virgin, saving myself, I was infertile. I felt completely defeminized. I hated my body. I started sleeping around (safely) to try and make myself feel better about it, turns out I can't orgasm either (which isn't uncommon for those types of surgeries, I hear). So my life sucked pretty bad for a bit.

Now I'm 19, still having pains, still bleeding (a LOT), I have unstable moods, and I gain weight too easily. I'm considering a complete hysterectomy in the not too distant future, seeing as I've tried multiple oral birth controls, IUD, Nexplanon, even Lupron which put me in a medical menopause (along with hormone therapy).

I've tried and tried, but honestly, why am I still trying? I don't have all the pieces required. I don't have the money to harvest my eggs, inseminate them, and get them placed so that maybe I'll have my own child, if it works. Why go through all of that medical bull s*it when I knew all along nothing would change?

Anyways, that's my story. Please feel free to share your struggle/triumph/story with infertility! 🌸