My happiness isn't important...

Alisha
I've been seeing my boyfriend for about 9 months going on 10 & I would visit him & his family at his grandparents which is an hour & a half away. Only my brother & my mom knew I where I was. My brother threw me under the bus & told my dad. My dad lives out of state rarely talks to me & he yelled at me lowkey called me a whore & told me that I need to figure out where I want to live bc I've disrespected him. & he told me that I have to date my boyfriend upon his rules. He says I'm not adult enough to be sleeping with him. I'm 19 years old, I do a lot for my family. I work nonstop & my dad would rather have me work then go to school. 
I just don't understand why the one time I'm happy I can't be because I have to suffer with everyone else & how miserable they are. I already have bad depression & anxiety & when I'm with my boyfriend & his family I actually feel loved & wanted & accepted.