M strong but m tired

Tired of my husband's harsh words... Feeling like go back but don't want to disturb my parents... N I don't have job. NOw I only that I can't deserve this insult n disrespectful behavior. M done .. Cried so many nights n days.. To save my self is not sin.. Inlaws n hubby constantly torture me on my weight..  See ur body.. U look ugly fat 😶 n i just tell don't speak about my body u have no right.. Now he wants divorce n m not in a mood to patch up but I dnt know where to go