I'm about to drink a cup of coffee...

Oly • SAHM who loves movies, nerdy games, music and cooking
I've been so good made it to 9 months with no shrimp, coffee, soft cheese etc. 
and now I'm making myself a 6 oz chocolate coffee and already feel like a guilty POS... 
Do I want to cry and drink it or dump it and be miserable all day. 
I need to eat some pickles and think this through