Can someone explain?

So during labor i guess i ended up ripping which i didnt feel and wasent expecting too either lol but was wondering who else went through the same thing and how long did it take you to heal and what did you wear? Cause of right now im using diaper pads and also pads from the hospital lol im a FTM so also alot alot of liquid comes out as well but idk if it has to do something with ripping that alot comes out or its just part of labor?