BFN not meant to be, found out he was cheating.

My ex of 3.5 years tried with me to get pregnant and it never happened in all those years...he ended up cheating on me and got his new gf pregnant but she couldn't hold it.  After 6 months of being happily single I fell in love unexpectedly and he wanted to give me a baby.. This is the 4th month it failed . It was probably not meant to be because I found out he was lying and cheating on me too. Part of me feels infertile but the other part thinks maybe it's a blessing in disguise. Lowkey I'm so sad because I feel like what I want the most (a baby) is not meant for me and I'm starting to feel that love isn't meant for me either. <\3