Back at work

Jesica
Planned a week long vacation last week for me and my husband. So I took time off at work. Happened to be the exact week I lost my baby. So a you can imagine, the vacation didn't take place. Instead I layed in bed or sat on the toilet crying my heart out. Virtually the worst week of my life. I really needed that vacation. 😞
I was 12 weeks. I told my coworkers as well.  I'm now back at work this morning feeling so anxious. I had a panic attack last night because I knew I'd have to go back to work and I don't want to share the news because I'd rather not cry but I have to or else I'll cry anyways if they tell anymore pregnant jokes. 
Idk what to do...😪