Got fed up and snapped today.

 

Well, mama was right! He was manipulative and controlling and I ended up kissing another boy when I was on Christmas vacation with my family. It was wrong, I know, not debating it at all, but I broke up with my boyfriend when I got back. 

 

He spent the next 5-6 years verbally (textually?) abusing me over email, Facebook, and text. He regularly got new email address and would drunkenly send me hate mail. He would unblock me on Facebook for just long enough to send me an email telling me what a whore I was. He got my phone numbers from mutual friends of his sister and mine. 

 

I acted with incredible maturity and never sunk to his level. But it had lasting effects on me. I have suffered from anxiety ever since. I have tried to be civil every time I see him family although his sister spit on me about three years ago. Now when he emails I polietly decline a relationship of any sort.

 

Well, he got drunk and emailed me a couple nights ago "I want to put the past behind us. I want to be friendly moving forward. I have tried to move past us but I keep coming back to you." And when I didn't respond he sent me an email, "response? I deserve a response cunt."

 

And I lost it. Told him I have regretted every day not getting the protective order when we broke up. And the only reason I didn't get it was because I didn't want him to go to jail for rape (16 and 20 is illegal in Texas with no statute of limitations) and be on a list forever. Told him to grow up and stop mooning over a girl you dated a decade ago when she was a teenager. I'm sorry, no one is that interesting at 16. I told him he was controlling and manipulative while we were together and cheating was one of the best decisions I've ever made!

 

I know I made things worse, probably, but Jesus fucking Christ. I am furious.