*TRIGGER* I don't want to get into a relationship because I'm scared of domestic violence.

It sounds so silly but I'm watching a show all about these women who were killed by their partners and went through domestic violence, and how they were controlling and jealous, and it's making me absolutely terrified to get into a relationship because there is every possibility that I could end up like those women. I really don't know what to do, I don't want to be alone forever but if it means I won't get violently abused by the person who is supposed to love me then so be it. I can't even comprehend how somebody could ever do that to someone. The thought of living with someone without knowing that you could be killed any moment is so upsetting and terrifying.