Seriously struggling

Kara • Married 🇨🇦 SAHM Girl 09/09/16 -x- Boy 08/29/19 Waiting to TTC #3

I am 39 weeks and 1 day today.

I will (most likely) be induced Friday or Tuesday because of complications.

I almost had my right kidney burst and they found out my left kidney has not worked right in a long time.

I was hospitalized for 4 days and pumped full of antibiotics and 3 times I took morphine. I was hoping for a natural home birth and was refusing even Tylenol until all of this happened. Now I feel guilt and stress every moment of the day.