DONT kno how to feel about it 😕 . .

I don't want to seem like I'm a selfish or petty person but I don't want my unborn's dad around when she is born . lemme start off by saying yes , I did say fuck him once cause he cheated on me & I slept with another male & there is a very very very slight chance my daughter is not his . but by the looks & math of it she is his . I am a very mature female & told him the circumstances surrounding that so he does not want to purchase anything for her until he gets a blood test done when she's born . by the way I must admit he's not one of those guys that just gets you pregnant & walks away he TOTALLY wants to be in her life if the test comes back positive for him being daddy . it's just I have gotten so used to doing everything for her myself . doctors appointments , clothes , care items - basically all the stuff that surrounds pregnancy I did ALONE . in you guys' opinion , Is it wrong that I don't even want to do the blood test that proves she is his & raise her alone ? I'm just so done with arguing with him about it & im already feeling like a single mom so I REALLYYYY don't mind doing this alone cause I love my daughter more than anything I can GUARANTEE she will not need him .