I married a monster...

I'm so hurt right now...my husband and I argued horribly yesterday. It all started Saturday when we were supposed to go out, but we ended up not going out because I did not want to change the dress I was wearing. I told him I wouldn't change, so he said ok we are not going. So I was like fine, I don't care. Later that day, someone came to check the roof bc his mom is thinking about replacing it. Ok well he was out there for about 3 hours, I texted him and got no reply. So I left to the store with my 5 month old son. He then realized I was not home. I told him "I was mad because he had been out there for the longest n he forgot bout us...u focused on ur mom wanted u being outside w her. U should b selfish like ur brother, how come he didn't go out n help her...u know u have a family and we r your priority. U r takin a position that does not belong to u. U r not ur mother husband or partner." He then said, "u r fuck ing stupid." (It's the 2nd time he calls me that...I have never called him names)

When I got home shortly after, he was heating up frozen pizzas. Hey it was not my fault he had been seating hungry out there with his mother for the longest. But, of course his mother did not care bc when she got home she ate so she was not hungry. She then went to church and came back happy like nothing happened. Meantime, my husband and I ended up mad at each other.

Yesterday, he stayed mad and didn't talk to me or our son all morning. Yes, he can be mad at me, but not our son that makes me more upset.

We then argued again n he kicked me out of the house again. Unfortunately I have no where to go or money. I am.not working due to a lawsuit I have pending. I told him I was surprised how he was treating me this way and kicking me out just like his father did with him and his mother. In that case I did tell him he was an asshole (first time I even call him anything) and that he was just like his father.

He then said Oh why don't u move with your mom and sister. That hurt even more. They are unaware of this situation and how he has kicked me out before when my son was less than 2 months old.

I'm so heartbroken I dnt know what to do...I hate fighting. Especially bc he kicks me out knowing I no money or place to go to. I will not go to my mother bc she is not doing well, health wise and her knowing my situation would be devastating. Any thoughts?

Thank you...