baby blues

Most the time I'm happy and in love with my little girl (5 days old) but whenever anyone talks about her feeding it upsets me I wanted to breast feed but I just couldn't she had issues latching on when I tried but when a nurse tried to help she went right on I was told I wasn't doing anything wrong but I felt like I was I wanted to keep her on breast milk no matter what so I was bottle feeding her and though I could just pump exclusively well that didn't work out either because I wasn't producing enough milk because I was an emergency c section (only in labor for an hour) and she ended up having very high levels of bilirubin so we were forced to formula feed even now I still can't pump enough and I'm in pain all the time I just feel so upset when I should be happy