she makes me so happy

So after being in a miserable controllimg toxic relationship for 4 years I'm finally happy.
 
Okay so I'm an alcoholic I have depression and anxiety and I also used to cut myself and when o get mad I shut completely down Since my break up I feel into a bad depression I started cutting again and drinking.
 
After 7 months of being alone I realized this isn't the road I want to go down so I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't cut anymore but I haven't stopped drinking.
Two months I think ago I met this amazing girl and I feel so comfortable with her that I told her everything about me and to my surprise she just as damaged as I am and we both have pretty horrible past and we both share similar things she have depression and anxiety and used to cut etc. 
Now I relate to her so much and she relates to me but I think I like her more than I should and even tho we are both damaged she makes me happy I've never been this happy with anyone every morning and night before I go to bed and wake up I have the most heart warming text 
But anyway I'm trying to be better for her like stop drinking etc