Super stressed mama!!

Kathleen • "She began to believe that very few things were indeed impossible." -Alice in Wonderland
Having one of the worst days in awhile. My son will be 3 months on the 15th and for the most part has been an amazing baby. Super happy and hardly fussy unless he's hungry or tired. He does suffer from severe reflux but it had been under control with meds...until this week!! 😞
   This whole week has been a nightmare. He throws up his entire bottle when he eats, screams in pain for hours and hasn't slept all day long (had one 20min nap around 11 & thats it) for the third day in a row, so we've now moved well into overtired territory. 
   With his commute my husband works 11/12hrs a day & doesn't get home until 2:00am at earliest, and because he works nights he sleeps until 10:30/11:00am. He helps as best he can when he's home & awake but most of our sons care falls to me. 
I had post partum anxiety for the first month 1/2, just started feeling like myself again a few weeks ago & now this! I can feel myself slipping! My parents have been a HUGE help to me since Joe was born, but they're on vacation this week so I don't have the heart to call them to vent! 
Joe's dr. Started him on new meds but unfortunately they take about a week to start seeing results. I feel awful seeing my poor bub in pain. It guts me & even though I logically know its not my fault I still feel super guilty! 😢
If you've actually made it to the end of this post I appreciate you taking the time to hear me vent! Just feeling a little backed in a corner right now!