Second child anxiety

As the days approach (38 days or less) I find myself getting more and more anxious. I have one child already who is 4, she is a little rotten but she is absolutely perfect but with a second child coming I am wondering how on earth do you divide you love to give to another child? Don't get me wrong I already love my baby that I am currently carrying but at the same time I feel guilty because I am going to have to give him more time than her because he will be a newborn. Then shortly after his birth my husband has to go TDY for 8 weeks (military life, gotta love it) and I'll be on my own with 2 kids through November, so he will also be gone for Thanksgiving. That also has me stressing because being military we are stationed at a new base and family is 8 hours away if I need help.

I guess I am just having an off day and a lot of emotion.