feels like I'm getting worse 😔

I'm having such a hard time right now. I've been on birth control for a month and I'm starting my second pack Sunday and I've just felt so bad since I've been on it. My first week I had nausea, And I've had that off and on since I've been on it. I feel fatter, even though I haven't been able to eat much because of bloating and I've lost 13 pounds since being on it. I just don't even know what to do anymore I hate my body and I hate everything it's doing right now and everytime I look in the mirror I just want to cry I just want it to get better so bad