KNOW YOUR WORTH 💖💅🏾✨

Guys, I don't even know where to begin. I'll first start off by saying that I am a rape victim and because of that I have had severe insecurities and I have ( and still do but I'm doing better ) had a bad habit of blaming myself for a lot of things. I never realized , until now, how important it is to put yourself first. There's this boy, Jawuan, and we've been on and off since 1st grade 😂 I'm currently a senior in high school lol. Last year we finally decided to have sex and I thought maybe we we're an item or something. Well I thought WRONG. After a while he cut things off, at first I was pretty nonchalant about it but it bugged me. I thought it was my fault , like I wasn't good enough and he finally realized that he deserved better. He later told me that he missed me and all that nonsense, at the time he was struggling in school so all I wanted to do was support him and make him better. Again we had sex and soon after he told me how he would never hurt me but he didn't want me to fall hard. So you would think that I learned my lesson but no once again I figured I was pushing myself into him too much and it turned him off, I tried to change who I was to make him happy. Anyway at the start of this school year, he told me that he wanted me back and didn't want me to leave him. Sadly I beloved him and trusted that he was being honest. He wasn't and I finally realized.... No I finally admitted that he was using me and instead of blaming myself or trying to use my body to get him. I saw that I was worth so much more. I deserved so much more. And I honestly am not mad at him, I want to thank him a MILLION TIMES because he finally opened my eyes. My body is not anyone's play toy & I don't have to use it to get people to like me. For any girls who truly think that's the way, it's not. It will only give you a temporary happiness but the void it leaves will be so much bigger 😪 it's not worth it. Not worth you or giving up who you are to make someone else's day. I know now to stay true to who I am. Give honesty and you will receive it. If you don't ? Leave them. This goes for friends , family , relationships, and everything in between because respect and value knows no boundaries