On the rocks 😔

Hey ladies so last night me an my hubby got into argument he was felltme how he feels that our relationship isn't gonna last very long or he feels like when is it gonna be over because I haven't been paying attention to him at all because I've been depressed for example when he tries to cuddle me or engage in sexually acts or try's to kiss me I push him away I say no an get mad at him so it hurts his feelings an makes him feel like I don't love him or want to be with him anymore an how when he asks me if I could massage him or put in work during sex I make it seem like it's a chore or don't want to do it I love my husband very much I cried so hard last night harder than I ever have before fighting for him not to go not to leave that I will do better I don't know what I would do without him when we met I was in a bad state an he helped me get back in my feet an turned my life around for the better my family loves him I love him i just can't see my life without him please don't judge me or say mean things nobody's perfect his birthday is coming up an I. Wanna do something really nice I don't have much money since I'm not working right now but I have some saved up what should I do? Please keep me in your prayers I hope I can make things better :) 🙏🏼