About Losing Virginity

Here talks the girl who promised herself to wait until marriage, who was 100% sure that she didn't need to make love so soon. Because I thought.. who loves me, waits for me. Right? And that's totally right. And he totally did. In case you are still virgin, please listen, I'm going to tell you all about it.. in just about 5 seconds. I, just like you probably, had trust issues. I didn't consider anyone worthy enough of it until I see the fucking commitment ring on my hand as a proof. Does this thought sound known? How many of us girls had trust issues about that subject? I thought that doing it was going to destroy my whole future and that when he's gonna leave, I'm going to be stained forever and unable to ever get close to anyone 'cause he took my all but.. No. Let me tell you something that no parent will ever tell you tho. Losing it is nice. It feels.. good. I cried because of happiness even if my whole body hurt because seeing the person I love and trust that close of me, smiling and asking me every 2 seconds if i'm okey was all I wanted. I have never cried from happiness before that. Do I know if he's gonna be my forever? Not even a clue. But letting all this, let me tell you something interesting. You don't have to feel pressured. Its your body, your self and nobody who wants to make you change your opinion is to be trusted. If they can't take it, you should stop pretending they are worth it. You see.. I knew he was the one I would wanna do it with. When i came up in front of him at 18 years old (an age which is clearly risky) and told him that I promised I'm gonna do it in my wedding night, and he said "i love you much more for this. Ill help you keep the promise then". After losing it to him, everything was just the same, except the often questions if my stomach felt good, if it hurt still. Someone who loves you is being careful tho. But what I know is that he hasn't missed a day of "good morning" and that it was my choice of giving him my virginity. You know.. you will know when the time will be right and when you will find the right person, because it won't feel awkward at all. You won't feel guilt at all. You won't feel stressed or pressured. It will feel close and private. Of course you will laugh when the condom will slip wrong xD or when he won't know where the fuck your hole is and you realise that you don't know either until he pushes it in a little bit. But you won't feel embarassed. Not even a minute. You will not feel awkward. That's how you know tho. You simply feel. Please don't settle for any less. You deserve all this great experience. And .. something else. Ps: first time is not that bad as they say. Definitelly not the best sex but the best experience. It will hurt, it's true. But if he is the right one, you will effortlessly feel the pleasure in the act instead of focusing on the pain. Also. Use protection. xo