Feeling stressed! Each day hurts, each month hurts, my life hurts!

I already feel like I'm going "cray cray” (crazy). I am tired emotionally, mentally, spiritually & physically. I have been trying for years then got pregnant with my first son last year. I had a healthy, happy & wonderful pregnancy until my seventh month I wasn't very happy that month.

I went for a check up & was told to go to a hospital, my bp was high, when I went to the hospital I was placed in high risk for severe PE. I hate this!

My love, my son, my life was born at 8 months but he couldn't stay with us. He left us. It has been 9 months since & every month I am in tears because every day I remember him & every month we have TTC since. I sometimes think certain things (not nice thoughts) because of this pain, I get angry at my spouse & myself. I want my son! I am a mess! This hurts.

Since then, some family members have gotten pregnant. That has not made this easier. I don't like seeing or hearing them. TTC for our rainbow. #Life# had my 1st child at age 30, he is my angel. #life#