Impatient!!!!

Ok so we are on our 5th month TTC. This month my husband and I both had a good feeling. AF shouldn't be coming yet but I have been experiencing what I think could be symptoms for early pregnancy or just super early mild PMS. I'm 9 dpo today and got a negative pregnancy test yeasterday and today. I know I should probably wait until the end of the week but I could t help it. Now I'm already feeling so down ☹️. When will it be my turn? Feeling so sad and Impatient!!!! It hurts to see other who aren't trying get pregnant and those of us who try have so much trouble. Am I being to hard on myself????