Okay, so last year my boyfriend and I had broken up because he had an ongoing drug problem and wasn't willing to quit. I then told him I didn't want to be with anymore and I was 150% sure of it. When we broke up I deleted his number and deleted him from social media, even though I did he still harassed me and wouldn't leave me alone. I ended up having sex with a long time friend of mine and we did use protection and we never even finished. If you know what I mean. Anyways, down the road my then ex and I got back together so I had told him what happened when I was single and he completely bitched me out and said very hurtful things and he even harassed the guy I had sex with. Since then we broke up just this last August, and within 3 days of us breaking up he went on a drug binge and had sex with a girl he apparently went to school with. He DIDN'T use protection and he CAME in her too. When he told me I did not bitch him out I was in complete shock and disbelief. I was more sad then anything. I did not harrass the girl. Later I found out that that girl was in a relationship while she had sex with my ex. I have so much built up anger towards him and I don't know how to feel. Sex to me is so special and I learned that after having sex with someone that I don't have an emotional connection with doesn't feel the same and I'll never do it again. But he said that when he had sex with this girl that he can barely remember because he was high and what not. But I feel like he's just saying that to try and make me feel better. It doesn't because apparently to him sex is just sex. But to me, sex is something special. Any helpful coping mechanism? Thanks.