can't believe I did it 😭

I'm 9 days PP from a planned csection, my bleeding has stopped. 3 days before my csection, my cervix was super closed as well. I've been dealing with baby blues and wanted to feel close to my SO. I let him get a "taste." We took it reallly slow, like I think it was equivalent to the walks I've been taking around the neighborhood. He didn't go that deep at all, but I'm still nervous. It didn't last long only like a minute and I told him I couldn't do it because we both just wanted more. He definitely did not cum. I just feel so stupid for letting him 😢 i was supposed to wait 6 weeks and I wanted to atleast wait a month. I took a shower right after cause I thought I'd feel better.