"Friends"

This last week. Me and my "best" "friend" of 5 years "broke up" in December she hit a hard wall and pushed me away. I'm that time I found my way to my boyfriend, whom I've known for 10 years. In February me and her reconnected after she gave me the "I tried to kill my self" "I'm sorry" talk. After that, nothing was the same. It's hard. I gave her everything. She was my sister. I would go out on any limb possible for her and her daughter. Never asked for anything in return. In march I made it official with my boyfriend and still kept in touch with my "best friend" at this point I had gotten use to living without her. She would try and be friends with my boyfriend but would tell me things weren't going to work and I was wasting my time. Which led to me and him arguing all the time because I let her toxic relationship with her fiancé influence mine. She also admitted she wished I was single so I could go back to being with her 24/7 and not him every chance I got. I wasn't blowing her off intentionally. I work (I run two businesses), she works, she has a baby, and a fiancé, I have bills, work & a relationship to uphold, so sometimes our schedules would clash. This last week was hard, but I realized with the help of a long lost friend that she never really treated me or cared for me as a friend. He saw it from day 1 but never new how to say anything. And he met another friend this past week and blatantly said "I've never seen you that happy and alive. Even when you were with your "best friend". Everyone helped me realize she used me mentally, emotionally and financially. I deserved to be happy. Lessons learned. Sometimes you NEED to cut the people out of your life that are toxic even if you never thought it would be them.