Fmmmllll

My SO and i live in a very small town, the only time i go anywhere like walmart or anything like that i usually go with him... Well yesterday i was gonna buy a pregnancy test with him there and tell him to just relax im just buying it to make sure because my periods are so irregular. However im supposed to be moving next week even though ive been literally dreading it because hes my whole world but a part of me wants to be pregnant just so i dont have to leave and ill give him a reason to make me not leave. As well as being ready for a baby because its all we have ever wanted in life, but out of anger i got an apartment in a different state and now i dont know how i feel about leaving. Idk.