The pain of hiding a miscarriage

So
My husband wrote a message expressing our loss on Facebook. I cut our names out of the post however. 
I thought I was just irregular. I ask myself everyday if I had know could I have stopped it. Each month hurts so much because we tried so hard to give my father a grandchild before he passed away. I feel like such a failure for not being able to grace my dad with such an honor. And now I never will 💔