Don't want to get my hopes up.

Long story short, 8 yrs ago I was forced into getting a tubal ligation done when I had my youngest child. A year later I met my SO and he knew about it. I regret it everyday and breaks my heart. But AF came on 12/2/14 and was suppose to start on 12/26/14. I have had really sore breasts and creamy CM, along with cold like symptoms. I know things can go hand in hand with either a period or pregnancy. I'm hoping the lord will grant me a pregnancy bc my SO has no biological children. I would love to give him a BFP, burin scared to test and get a BFN. No Debbie downers please. Just support.