omg I can't deal

Does anyone else have to find somewhere in their house to hide and cry? I have two kids, I'm a stay at home mom for the first time in my life. ( I'm a ON the go person) and my life is all about them I eat sleep and breath my kids. Not literally but you know what I mEan. I wake up in the middle of the night for them. School drop off and pick up. Bathe. meals. Play time. Homework. Attitudes and all! I'm currently hiding and crying because I feel like I'm going insane. 😭