RANT. SO IRRITATED.

So there's 2 reasons why. For one, when I had my son (had him in July) my FIL and MIL didn't really care as much when my son was sick. He had a high fever at 1 week old and we ended up having to stay in the hospital for 3 weeks. They didn't seem to care as much that he was really sick. Even after that, my son would be in pain and cry very bad so we would have to go to the ER and at times we've asked if they could drop us off, they said no. But when my SO's little brother is crying about diarrhea we have to stop everything and take him to the ER. My MIL claims that he was crying and saying that his stomach hurts and he's puking like crazy and having major diarrhea. Well we came to see how he was doing and he's sitting there perfectly fine, watching tv. He's had so called diarrhea 2 times today and puked once. Well my MIL and SO are at the hospital (once again leaving me to always take care of OUR baby) and they said he's perfectly fine. My SO's brother said he's okay. His stomach doesn't hurt. He hasn't puked or had diarrhea since this morning. So their still at the hospital now waiting. It's been about 5 hours now and they still aren't home. SECOND REASON WHY IM IRRATATED is because my SO never does that for me. After I had my son, I was in excruciating pain because my sutures never healed correctly. They were infected. I cried all the time saying how bad they hurt and how I felt like something was wrong. He kept telling me it's the after process and we should wait to see if it heals. I couldn't handle it and ended up going to the ER. He came with me. But fell asleep while I laid on the bed crying in pain. Before I had my son, I ended up getting a fever and an ear infection. All while having swollen feet, nerve pain, and back pain. He was sleeping and I asked if he could get my some Tylenol and he looked at me and then turned his face and went back to sleep. Then his mom calls about 5 mins later asking for a favor and he's up and gone before I know it. IM JUST SO FUCKING PISSED FEELING LIKE HE'LL NEVER FUCKING PUT ME FIRST. EVER. ME OR OUR BABY. ITS ALWAYS HIS FAMILY FIRST BEFORE US. IM JUST SO FUCKING UPSET ABOUT IT. IM SO TIRED OF TALKING TO HIM ABOUT IT BECAUSE HE NEVER CHANGES. HE NEVER LISTENS.... I feel so alone.... he makes me feel like he doesn't love me or care.