Feeling a bunch of unexpected emotions, this is my 3rd Baby & c-section, so I know what to 'expect,' however I can't shake this feeling of what if something goes wrong? Also, I am getting my tubes tied, which is obviously a permanent decision to not have any further babies, and I've been so mopey and depressed about it the last couple of days thinking about the fact that all the 'firsts are also lasts,' and I'm sad.  I know we're "done," but have never made it permanent in any sense and it feels like a death in a way... Ugh!! 😞😥

A time that should be joyous and exciting has turned into a depressed mood of anxiety and fear and sadness, I hate this!!  OK, rant over! 

 

Wish me luck tomorrow, Ladies.... 😊