Grieving while pregnant

I just need everything in my life to come to a pause. I'm pregnant (ftm) and I'm grieving the loss of my spouse. We planned this pregnancy and waited to have a baby for so long. I'm lost, dazed and confused. I'm not supposed to be doing this alone. He was all I had and now I'm left to keep his memory alive for our child. But all I can think about is where do I go from here?