I'm my number one lover in sex

Odette
I'm 21, why is it that I have never been able to orgasm with someone unless I'm by myself doing it myself. And sometimes I'm not sure if what I'm feeling is even an orgasm because I feel like I've never fully experienced once. I get more turned on somehow being alone than with my boyfriend, including past people I've been with. Is this weird? Am I the only one lol.