what is my brain doing?

Carissa
Okay, so this feels slightly awkward, but here goes. 
This is the second time recently I've woken up sweating because of a sex (?) dream about the guy who I fell for, but wasn't ready to be with me.
Basically, he'd recently got his heart handed to him. He did have feelings for me, but said it just wasn't the right time. I couldn't see the yield sign and I fell for him anyway. 
It's been really hard.  
Half a year later and I'm trying to recover and go out on occasion with different people.
Even just to show myself there's hope. 
And low and behold, this wonderful guy keeps popping up in my dreams. 
I really don't know what to think.