So I guess I was wrong!!!! I was hoping to spend thanksgiving with my boyfriend, I guess I was wrong, he said no, I like to keep us private!!! That hurt me to a core, so I don't or won't ever get to meet his family because we're private, then this kitty going private then...it makes me think I'm not worth it, like I guess I really don't belong or I'm just not good enough!!!! We've been together for 3 years and I try not to hassel him about it, but it bothers me....before me my previous boyfriends left me by myself during the holidays, now I feel like I'm going through the same thing again, I can't stomach this all over again, I don't understand, is it me!?!?!?! I'm me, I don't cuss nor swear or drink like a sailor, nothing unruly!!! I'm sweet and would do anything for anyone, shucks even give them the shirt off my back, I don't understand, I don't get it, guess I care too much!!!!! But when I dgaf then they get an attitude, what am I doing wrong!!!

*well marriage and kids aren't a go, so I guess neither am I, his family knows of me, that's it, he's with his family during the holidays and throws get togethers