Kissing "virginity"?


I'm 15, I really regret my first kiss which was at a friend's party (where I found out I am a lightweight as was tipsy after 1 & 1\2 cans of cider*) This lead to me kissing this boy who I really dislike- he is a complete knob.

I kind of think of a first kiss as (I don't known how else to explain what I mean) a "virginity"...

Any way, this leads to my question: Does anyone understand what I mean about it being special?/also regret their first kiss?

*I am not a 'yolo'ing cool kid who gets drunk and parties all the time, it was a house party (and the only time I have been remotely near drunk- which I wasn't -just tipsy) so please don't kill me ;)