Cesarean moms, share your stories. Especially if you had a vaginal delivery and then a cesarean.

I've had 3 vaginal births and I'm trying to decide on a cesarean this time. I'm so scared of it but we had complications during my last birth and almost lost my daughter. I don't know if I can go through labor again emotionally or physically and I have the option of an elective cesarean. I'm terrified of both. Don't know what to do and my doctors have told me it's up to me. They support me in whichever we decide. I'm 38 weeks and need to decide and be 100% with my decision.