anxiety.

Do any of you experience this aswell? Mine is so bad it's starting to interfere with my relationship. My boyfriend wants me to spend more time with his family, and I have met them once. And I've been with him for over a year, and they live just down the street from me. They're always inviting me to do things with them, and even told my boyfriend they liked me and wanted to see more of me after I met them. They're a nice family. They now feel rejected and get frustrated at the fact I never come around. I feel so bad because it's nothing against them. I guess I feel even more nervous around them specifically because I want to be perfect for their son. I'm afraid if they get to know me and truly develop an opinion of me, they won't like me. I'm always thinking the worst of situations and of myself. My heart races every time I even pass their house. A lot of times I don't even like going into stores, going to the movies, anything because of my anxiety. I hate sweating, my heart racing over pretty much nothing. I've done so much to cope and it's so hard. I can't afford counseling, and his parents know I have anxiety. They don't understand it, they just take it as rejection. I understand why they're frustrated. I promised my boyfriend I'd make an effort to see them more often, and in seeing them tomorrow and can't stop thinking about it. I'm so nervous, very nervous. I think about it constantly. Idk what I should do.. I don't even have friends to talk to about this. I really don't. It's hard and I'm really feeling alone, any advice? Thank you