mental health

What is up with people glamourising & self diagnosing themselves with mental illnesses. I have generalised anxiety disorder, social anxiety and panic disorder oh and depression formally diagnosed by my doctor after many many tests. Why do people think having panic attacks are cute? You feel like your gunna die, feeling like your loosing control & going insane- let alone the physical symptoms. One of my friends said to me "you don't look depressed" because that's the sad thing. We live In a society where people think they can spot a mental illness just by looking at someone. I don't get how not being able to talk to strangers & being sick before you go to work & not being able to leave your house is in anyway desirable to someone else. I don't get how feeling so low you can't leave your bed, you feel like you don't want to be alive & cry yourself to sleep every night is somehow something someone wants to feel, just cus I don't do self harm doesn't mean I am not depressed. I wish more people were aware of mental health illnesses.