Help Me Please😔

I'm 17 years old and I have a 7 & a half month old son, his father isn't in the picture anymore. I'm pregnant again from a boy I had been dating and he said he hopes me & my son died...he is a horrible person and I do not want to be with him. I don't know if I should have an abortion or keep the baby....I do not believe in abortion what so ever it's so wrong to me...but the situation I'm in I have thought of it. I'm 17 I have my own place that my mom helps me with. I don't have a job, but I'm looking I struggle already but I have people saying they will help me. And I can't do adoption If I carry my baby it's mine. Please give me your opinions on different options I have I'm freaking out & deep down I want to keep my baby but I don't know what's best for me right now. And don't tell me that it's only my choice bc I understand that I just need opinions to help me think on it more. Please please help me.