your thoughts please 🤔

I really hate myself for posting this... but okay here it goes... before I was never afraid of having unprotected sex((always used pull out method)). I never ended up pregnant. I did get pregnant in 2013 which was semi planned. Reason I say semi planned is because we wanted a baby; Without the pressure of trying and calculating when to have sex and all that stuff. It was more just finally him cumming inside of me. And if I got pregnant it was a blessing. If I didn't it was just time. Anyways back to my topic. After having my son I got on birth control. But all i tried gave me terrible side affects. From getting constant headaches to having long long periods. So I finally said enough and gave up. I want to use condoms. But my SO doesn't want too. He wants to just "pull out".. but for some reason I'm just so paranoid about it. I know I don't want another baby right now. But can't think of another way to be safe? I feel like condoms are the only choice. And I honestly don't know why I'm so paranoid now 😂 😂 but I am.