why do I do this to my self.

Took a test this morning even though I know it's too early. I'm about 7 or 8 dpo. I was just like maybe I'll be lucky and I'll show up nice and early even though my period isn't due til next week. Nope BFN. I swear I can see a start of a line but I know it's just line eyes.  Lost hope, guess clomid didn't work for me. I got two positive opk but i must have other problems besides not ovulating.