Hopeless Romantic...and Virgin

I am a hopeless romantic...and virgin. I'm almost 18, but I have always felt older. I don't really fit in at my high school, (I have been waiting for college since before I entered high school) I love learning, books, writing...and no guys show any interest in me. I really want a relationship, someone to love. Others on eve keep telling me to just get a vibrator but I am not 18 yet so I can't...and I really want a guy I can experiment with. Is it wrong that I am literally fantasizing about having a guy lay down and letting me lick all over?! I feel like I'm some sex beast or something! That's defiantly not all I want in a relationship, sexual attraction, but that defiantly plays a part. Can you be a hopeless romantic and love hot sex?!