My doctor just told me he wants me to stay in the hospital on bedrest until I'm 36 weeks. I'm only 26 weeks. I'm missing so many major holidays with my family. The more I lay here the more I regret having a baby. I look on social medias & see everyone my age just happy with life. I threw my life away thinking I was in love & he left me as soon as it was too late for an abortion, just to be sure I didn't have one. Life is so unfair. I wish I could just start over. People are always telling me not to cry but how could I not be mad or sad. I hate that I'm in the young & dumb category. I wish I was a guy, guys get away with any & everything. I'm stuck with a baby for the rest of my life while he's just living it up. I'm so tired